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I used to worry about not fully completing my required tasks, my required tasks of living. I used to do this in a very vague and neurosis-like way, in an abstract way. I think I’ve recently come to understand that it’s best to simply get things done to the best of your ability, on a day-by-day basis. I usually try and do things in order of importance, and I try and move quickly regarding the important and time-sensitive tasks. These specific tasks carry dual-significance, and so it’s best to get those done the soonest. But just to get back to the point that was mentioned earlier; I try not to worry too much about “missing something–something undefined. I don’t know what it is, exactly.” And I try to not worry about “something or another being out of place or not right.” This is vague and neurotic worrying. This whole thing is actually to do with a nervous condition that I have; I was sort of formally diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. This is in addition to a psychotic disorder I was unfortunately diagnosed with as well, in the past. And so I actually have a feeling of general anxiousness every so often, it’s hard to let go of it. | I’ve recently realized that the best way to deal with getting things done and moving along with life is by moving slowly but surely, by being fairly focused on what you’re doing, and by doing what you can every day. A few tasks completed every day makes a difference—it amounts to a huge amount of work, errands, and responsibilities taken care of, within a year or two. I feel it’s a bit more difficult in terms of a job//career that you have to do. I feel that this specific obligation often entails daily or weekly assignments or tasks that have to be done, and they all weigh somewhat heavily. And so careers are a big responsibility, mostly because you’re likely producing for or serving a target population or a segment of the public; the populace, I think. There’s always some pressure to perform well and to meet the necessary tasks well. *But even with “jobs” and with income-earning endeavors, there’s room for flexibility and recharge; reflection and healing.