Well, I just think I need to get over the blockages and mental pain and emotional paralysis that I keep experiencing. Freedom is on the other side of whatever it is that’s bothering me.
My main challenges these days are the rumors and negative words that I suspect are going on behind my back; negative slanders and distressing words that I truly think are being said about me, behind closed doors. (By family, acquaintances, and etc.) I also have vivid memories of bullying and other types of negative situations that have happened to me in the past. These incidences keep on repeating themselves in my mind, it’s hard to shake them off and let them go.
I’ve recently realized that the way out of pain is through feeling everything. The way out is through the pain, itself.
“One who does what the Friend wants done
will never need a friend.
There’s a bankruptcy that’s pure gain.
The moon stays bright when it
doesn’t avoid the night.
A rose’s rarest essence
lives in the thorn.”
–The Soul of Rumi. Coleman Barks.
“And even though it all went wrong, I stand before the God of Song with nothing on my lips but ‘hallelujah.” -Leonard Cohen.
I still worry about stuff. But hey, there’s so much happiness in life, too. You have to take the good with the bad. Both the positive and the negative have a lot to offer, i guess.
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